Anecdote #37

Making mistakes is one thing but repeating them consistently is a bit of a problem. How do you stop yourself from taking the wrong step. Let me rephrase that, how do you refrain yourself from getting into something that you are aware is harmful. This can get really tough especially if these are habits or people that you have to deal with on a daily basis. At times these people turn into a bad habit. You still go back to them because there is this odd connection but at the same time you drive yourself guilty over spending time with them. Gradually they become toxic for you or in other words you make them toxic for yourself. In other words if you keep such people at a distance they may not prove to be such a bad influence but the fact that we fail to form boundaries hurts us in a lot of ways. It is so hard to chose who is and who is not right for you. Then you have to make the decision of whether they can be close friends or not. If you decide to be cautious and keep everyone at bay, loneliness engulfs you. So what to do and what not to do. Do you make yourself stronger and learn to be your own company or do you surround yourself with people that suck your energy with their hollow conversations. Honestly it is very hard to make the right decision, find the right people and it's even harder to deal with regrettable choices. There is no standard solution because such are nuanced with complexities. The problem is that we think too much and amplify such situations manifold in our minds. In a way we are our own culprits so it is unfair to expect other people to come into our lives as saviours. Perhaps if we start realising that the onus is on us our minds will stop backtracking into this vicious cycle.
I say let's keep living, let destiny take it's course and let's hope we learn ourselves better in the coming time.