Yesterday as I watched a movie the age old aphorism of how the past always catches up came across my way. It seemed completely appropriate given my current state of mind. When life throws curveballs at us we encounter a tendency of going back to the past for comparison. I am very different from who I was, yet I am the same. I have the same mind, some deeply entrenched memories and a few poor decisions that loom over my head. Running away from all this hasn't worked out as it has constrained the understanding of my actions. I wouldn't learn anything until I come to terms with it. Giving up is the easiest yet the least satisfying option for me. Fighting it out is much harder but it increases your endurance. Amidst all of this we wish for some kind of support but the circumstances maybe such that we are destined to go through the journey alone. I do not know what the end of all this is, maybe it's just a vicious circle that's hard to break, it's quite possible that this is Karma or it could be a phase that is about to run it's course.
Stop fighting your emotions. You cannot plan the way you feel, stop making it harder or more complicated for yourself. Introspect and if social interactions seem too strenuous be a man or woman of fewer words.
If all this fails try to go back and remember all the promises you made to yourself. It just maybe the right time to fulfil them.
It’s amazing to see how introspective you’ve become. Wish you all the best in life, and hope you keep becoming wiser.
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